Do you know how does it feel like not knowing of what the future has to promise.
I might know. But I don't expect it to be as far as what I've known.
I tried my best, perhaps not fully yah cuz' it is still ongoing but is coming to an end.
I want to end this whole CAT thing splendidly. *in terms of my examination results*
I want to end this 2013 year majestically. *tho I would be sleeping all day long doing nothing after 12th of Dec 2013*
Then I would like to start my 2014 enthusiastically. Because of this uncertainty of what the future might be, I shall get a job.
Having this plan of getting a job from a firm, I tenaciously believe that I will cope with something useful for my future *life planning*. *I could earn some money to buy things* *kumpui kumpui kumpui duit sampai jadi bukit*
I am certainly a step or *perhaps 1 and half steps* closer to my target but I have to endure the pain of everything if they are not meant to be as what I have expected.
The pain might be not be as painful as I thought but taking into the account of my loved ones feelings, that would be the most painful.
What has gotten into this M girl ?
This future thing kind of scary. People might simply say "oh you go study sudah la everything's fine; it is the matter of next year no need to think now; we know what are we doing now no worries everything's cool;" bla bla bla kepala hotak semua orang ?
Ok ok it is not my future is held in people's hands; it's in my hand. Allah has it fated on me and it is me who either successfully make it through or ... terribly fck it up.
If life is all about choices, then what are the choices do I have ? I should have gone to the place where I supposed to be in 3 months time if I made my choice. There are more options indeed and yes of course there is possibility I wouldn't go anywhere, I would just get my plans done for my future, here. here not *in my blog* pls
Anyhow my brain would have exploded if I keep overthinking this such unimportant yet so important thing.
Should I have you know that I am planning to get an iPod touch 5th generation ? I'M SAVING FOR THIS TOO.
this is sort of 'ambiguity' so
PLEASE HELP ME CHOOSE THE PINK OR RED ONE
p/s: "Hidup kena pandai gelecek." -Mom